poem 15

"after being sad for so long

you start to wonder if you’ll ever find happiness 

if you’ll ever feel better 

if you’ll find something other than emptiness 

so much self-pity blinded me 

asking for forgiveness

for sins

only I can see

I called out for help

and I thought no one listened

but there was someone

way out in the distance

who knew of my pain

who knew of my suffering

who wanted to be my friend

who wanted to comfort me

and I let them in

after keeping them out for so long

they became my friend

one who was there all along."